Friday, May 3, 2013

很久以前写的-2011

没有他的支持

有梦想是多么快乐的一件事呐~  拥有梦想,是美好的,别人怎么样也抢不掉你的梦想,所以我说梦想是美好的,至少对我而言。

我一直都有好几个梦想。但,我从来都不敢告诉任何人我那渺小的梦想。也许,害怕别人给予的评语不是我想听的。也许,有时自己也没什么信心

好想告诉他,我全部的梦想。

想告诉他是因为想让他为我感到开心,在我耳边小声的亲口说,“加油,别放弃!

但,事与愿违,他完全对我的梦想一无所知。我没告诉他,他从来没问我。


最近,脑袋瓜忽然想起那早就被我埋在比心底还要再里面的梦想。想想现在的我,18岁。名副其实的年轻人,够资格去追寻我的梦想。不管再有什么样的阻扰,不会轻易的放手。

我该跟他说梦想的事吗?得到的会是正面的鼓励,还是造成心里另一个伤害。
曾经我想就这样直奔我的梦想,完全不在乎那些不看好我的人。

可是,在有这个念头的下一秒,很自然你的出现让我止步了。



梦想,我该向你前进吗?

曾经-2010

当我想起要为这个新的blog打些什么文章的,

有个人从我的脑海中闪过。

我不能否认,也只能承认了。XD


你是那个人,

轻易牵动我心的那个人。

我的心情都是看你的反应而定。


当你给了我开心、满足的表情,

这样已经足以让我高兴一天了。


当你给了我个没有表情、没有任何感觉的表情,

这样也真的让我想了好久-

你到底是怎么了。发生了什么事吗。是我让你不高兴了吗。

总之,你到底怎么了嘛。


当男生遇到事情/压力时,

做女朋友的不是应该安安静静在一旁,等你冷静下来,再问你怎么了吗。

我就是不想让你觉得我很烦,所以我才会在你旁边陪你。

我害怕要是我一直追问你怎么了,

你会觉得我真的是烦透了,

觉得我吵死了,不给你一点安静的空间。

相信我,我没有不想理你。

我下一次一定会烦你、烦你烦到你说停我才停止。

这样,你绝对没理由让你挑了。呵呵 =目


你,让我很难捉摸。

真的,好难。

但,我绝对没放弃去了解你,也不会放弃。

同样我们都是水瓶座,但怎么好像不是很了解你呢。

我自责了。

请再给我时间,我会证明给你看。

让你知道我也是在乎你。


Sunday, March 24, 2013

Let it go


Exam is just around the corner. 
NO!!!! It is just left with one day!
But I still cant pay 100% concentration on my revision.

My study mood is not on YETTTTT

What the heck is happened on me these days.
*Izit just these days?* 
I think it happened more than days to be counted.



Yes, I know the thing is still there.
But...
I do not know is that left with memories or feeling.

If memories, yeah, u did killing the inside of me for so longggg time.
Please stop, it hurts.

If feeling, oh my goodness.
U're so stupid.
start to talk to myself againn
It really really hurts. Please stop it now.


I thought I would not have this butterflies all over my stomach when...
I met you, 
I talked to you, 
we laughed together like silly people.


Sometimes (actually most of the time) I feel like, why in real life, we cant have like the scenes in Vampire Diaries Season 4, 
where Damon compelled Elena to turn off her humanity. 
By turning off her humanity, 
she couldn't feel the sadness and hurts that her only brother had died. 


That's drama. Now this is real life.
Ughhh
And yes, I underestimated all these.

I'm not going to hold all these things anymore. 
Neither I want to remember 
nor care each of the little thing of yours.

It's time to let go.
Let go everything.
Yes, EVERYTHING.
Just let it go.