Months passed by
I'm still hanging on the same reason
again and again.
Told myself to have a break from all those stuffs
But, I just failed to do so.
I once gathered all my tears and sorrow, leaving that place.
But, now I only realized,
I'm not leaving too far,
I just walked from the place to outside of the place.
I'm outside of it, waiting like nobody cares.
Standing outside yet looking into the circle,
trying to get into it.
Place of thorns and pieces of glasses.
Still, stubborn enough wanting to go back.
Life's so funny.
And ridiculous.
Take a deep breath.
Despite the deep breath is too long to take,
it's okay. Just take the time to heal.
No matter how long it is, just breathe and get healed.
I'll be alright.
Back to the independent person.
Being dependent is just my outer layer,
a shield to protect a relationship.
But now, I should not lose myself.
Get back to the independent and strong person.
Perhaps, it needs time to back on track.
being dependent for sometimes,
all I need is time.
Get rid of it.
Gain experience.
Be independent.
Be strong enough to shed the tears away.
BunnieLand is dead
Totally deaddd
due to massive work on the assignments, tests and presentations over the few months.
Recently,
I have so much idea to put in
but
I have nooooo......time
Cropping, editing and uploading aren't easy things to do
Yet they require a lot of time and effort.
Hmm..
Guess it'll be back on January.
Hope my idea will successful this time
I need more creative ideas
more and more and more
24 hours isn't enough at all.
Maybe it's because
my time management is bad.
very bad x293509248652865
Assignments due is approaching.
One on 18th, another one on 22nd.
I started the 22nd one,
but the 22nd one still untouchable,
not even the title of the assignment.
17th - Social Networking finals
- Hubungan Etnik finals
18th - International Business assignment
19th till 21st - Work
22nd - Entrepreneurial Management assignment
Ah...looking at these make me frustrated all the time
Have been eating a lot of snacks (rubbish foods) recently
Hope I won't get very fat by the end of all the finals and assignments
(although I'm fat now, but please no fatter kay..)
Gotta stop here,
back to my assignment.
xoxo,
Alaine
信任这东西
需要付出好多时间和精神才可以得到一个人的信任
但讽刺的是
在一个极短的时间内你就可以彻底地失去了它
一路来
我都是那个不被信任的人
我承认以前的我是如此爱说谎，爱隐藏
也为此付出过代价
痛的代价 心碎的代价
痛 让我成长，领悟，惭愧，改过
现在的我
再也不像以前那样会隐藏真相，编出各种谎话
但。。。
我依然是那个没人相信的人
好像没人会再相信我了
不被信任不是这一两天的事了
但今天被怀疑
心情就像第一次被怀疑一样
跌到谷底般
那个痛
久久都不能痊愈
