Old enough to get into a fight?
Hate
Dislike
Hardly could I understand these which happen to both of you.
Won't both of you feel tired after the fight and quarrel?
Quarrel and fight is quite common in between siblings when we were in young age.
I still remembered four of us used to get into fight when we were at home without parents in those old days.
In the age of 8, I had that thought 'why I want to fight? so bored and no benefit at all'
Then I stopped fighting. Hahaha~
Since then I never fight with my siblings and seldom have quarrels with them.
I'm more to a soft person and have good temper among them.
Now I'm 20.
I still couldn't believe you guys are still quarreling over small matters.
I hate the quarrels, I hate the fights.
I'm starting to get worried, panicked and every negative thoughts came into my mind.
Stressed!!!
Why your quarrel could gave me so much of tension and stressed me all the time?
Every of you are trying to ask me to do this and that.
I think 'order' would be better to describe.
Yes, they order me to look after both of you.
Order me to take care of this 18 years old KID.
Order me to ask him go to school, what time should he get home, what time should he sleep, what should he eat etc etc etc.
Order me to clean the house.
Order me to keep my eyes on both of you.
Order me to give money to KID.
Order me to put all my attention on both of you.
My freedom? life? dream? studies?
Where they go?
I cared too much. I gave too much.
I wanted to care less and go away from all these.
I want to continue my studies in somewhere else, as long as not with you guys.
I want to get rid all of these.
But can I?
I'm tired.
I'm really tired.
Please let me have a break. Seriously.
Maybe I should be selfish a bit.
Maybe I should care less.
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