#YOLO

This gonna the REALLLL YOLO post.
What is the thing so real YOLO about?

1st of December,
tried something that I've never tried before.

Courage is the main key.
Gathered all my courage.
No matter what's the outcome, it doesn't matter.  
At least, I got to say it, before it's too late.

In life, there's a lot of people afraid of risks.
I can see that you're afraid of the risks in boy-girl relationship.
The risk of  getting hurt.
The risk of being cheated on.
The risk of being used.

Your past has brought too much of painful and heartbreaking memories to you.
The should-be-forgotten past has molded you,
To be a better and matured person.
But in the same time,
To be a person who afraid of falling in love again.
Maybe one day, all the past and heartbreaking memories could be really left behind.
And that might be the time when you can feel the love again.

So,
I accept the answer calmly.
Understand your situation, difficulties and feelings.
Not forcing you for any answer or confirmation.

It's just simply like a YOLO mission,
which I feel that one day I might regret if I don't say it out right now.

No matter what's the outcomes in the end, 
it's alright actually.
My feeling is not so fragile and weak.


To be honest, I didn't feel any heartbreaking thingy but there's still something.
Something like, why we can't just work this out together. 
I just can tell that, the feeling of afraid and scared is killing a lot.

Somehow,
We're not being together, but we make it feel like we're together.
I wouldn't ask you to handle my heart with care and love.
I will handle my heart myself. Fragile or not, that's my choice.
I just want you to know,
I'm not giving you pressure to the whatsoever answer.
But at least, don't ever cheat yourself on your own true feelings.
Face your true feelings.
AND,
Don't ever ask me to move on or,
go for another guy or,
ignore my existence.
You knew what's my feeling towards you. 
You knew it very well, I know.
I will always care for you, 
even if we're not together, 
even if one day we're far away from each other.

We may not be together, but you're always on my mind and in my heart.
Maybe, someday you'll feel like falling in love,
you'll feel like forget all the risks and just take the fall.
Because,
If it's meant to be, then it's worth it all.
Don't forget to enjoy the best things in your life, 
cause you ain't gonna get to live it twice.