Confirmation?

Totally neglected my blog for a long time.

I'm back.

Talking about confirmation

Hmm

I guess it's a tough moment while waiting for the confirmation

It's either a job confirmation

or confirmation about a r/ship

But I guess whenever the confirmation is yet to be done,

everything is questioned.

Have been questioning myself for such a long time.

"Is he the right guy?"

"Are you ready for that?"

"What would you do to cherish your partner?"

etc.....

All these popped into my head,

each and every day.

Thinking about someone do make us feel happy.

But become emotional also, at the same time.

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I once ran after a guy that I liked so much.

Spent time and effort on him,

without any hesitation or doubt,

I just wanted to be with him so badly that time.

At last, everything ended up.

Everything went worse.

I never blamed him for that.

I blamed myself a lot.

That's my decision which I decided to run after a guy who doesn't liked me at all.

So, bear the consequences :)

Everything goes well.

I let go all of the feelings and I'm okay right now.

After this particular guy, I told myself

I wouldn't chase after a guy anymore.

Once is enough. I'm tired.

If he likes you, he will eventually put in effort to be with you. 

No matter how hard the situation is, you will be with him.

If he is meant to be yours, he will by your side, at last.

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I know rushing brings nothing but just a harmful decision to both of us.

But, I just wanna let you know something.

Something that I really think of in every single days.

I can't deny that I'm missing you.

I miss you, a lot more than you could ever think of.

I have so much things to do with you.

Share food with you. 

Explore new cafes and restaurants around the town. 

Bring me along for trips. Short vacation or long trip to overseas. 

Bring me to Disneyland.

Cherish you and the moments we are together. 

Be your listener and share your burdens.

Be with you when you're down.

Give you freedom and watch you smile around your friends.

Smile with you. Talk lame jokes with you.

Sing songs with you. Even though we sing like mad people.

Cook for you. Cook with you. Don't care it's breakfast, lunch or dinner.

Swim together. Our fav sports ;)

On diet together. Save money on the same time :P

Watch movies together.

Enjoy lil moments with you.

Enjoy silent moments where you play your games and I do my stuffs.

Enjoy each other's presence and existence.

Guess this is what I gonna do with the future boyfie.

Two persons, just you and me.

It's perfect enough, at least for me.

Anyway, time is needed before going into a serious relationship.

No rushing, but with patience, tolerance and understanding

Confirmation? Screw you.

Appreciate the moments. Cherish all the memories. Make moments into memories.

I would be here, all the time, to be with you :')

070514

-feeling depressed on the assignment and some thoughts-

Sometimes, I just dislike receiving calls from home.

Not that I'm not a home person.

But....

I just felt that I need a break.

A break from all the reality.

A real break. For my mind and soul.

I'm really tired with what's going on in there.

Kids aren't growing maturely.

Parents are having matters with work.

Loads of problem are poured out to me.

I don't mind to be a listener and adviser.

But, once I give out my advice, and you don't wanna take my advice to consideration.

Then, fine. It's really fine for that.

Just make sure, you don't come back to me for the same reason/ same problem anymore.

When you don't wanna listen to me at the first place,

why would you come back to me for the second time or third or moreeee

Same problem over and over againnn

There's no point for me to do so.

and I'm exhausted for all these.

I feel like I'm not being appreciated for what I've done.

Not to say that I've done a lot of big things for people.

But I've tried my best to live my life, to solve my things, to earn my extra living expenses.

All these are done by my own.

But, why why why

Why you guys never looked at my life and started to appreciate what you guys have now.

You guys don't need to do part time jobs during weekends, semester break or even on weekdays.

You guys can get you pocket money without paying room rental and miscellaneous bills and so on.

You guys can buy tickets and just go back to hometown whenever you guys want without having to pay the tickets by your own.

Why don't appreciate this kind of life but yet make others life miserable and tough?

I've been so tired of all your bullshits.

Arguments non-stop all over the place.

I just wanna get rid of it and moved out.

I moved out indeed and live a new life now.

But the same thing still happens and goes on...

God, please help me in this.
I need your love and wisdom to go through all these.
I knew we can't rid the world of sorrow, but we can choose to live in joy.

I'm tired.

hurt.

cried.

Get lost!

Stop giving such harsh comment to people that you don't know.

You don't know their life yet you judge them.

Don't judge a book by its cover.

You won't know how they go through their life stuffs.

Unless you're them.

Happy life, sad life, tough life etc.

You didn't live their life,

therefore,

Shut The Fuck Up.

I knew there are some friends who really struggled hard for their live

at such young age.

It's good and helping them to mold their characteristics.

They tend to be more mature than other same aged people. *no offense*

But,

There are some really never-worry-anything people.

Their families could provide everything they want. 

Their needs, their desires.

They could never failed to get anything they want, probably.

Sounds like I hate rich people a lot. 

But, 

NO, PLEASE DON'T GET ME WRONG.

I just wanna say their life is much more easier than others who have to work hard for their living expenses and stuffs.

So, people,

Before you start to judge a person,

stop for a moment,

think about him/her.

He/she might gone through something you never had.

Don't judge others until you get to know how they live their life.

To all the people out there who judge me like you know me well,

sorry to say that you don't know me.

Don't act like you know.

Don't act like 'eh I know her. She's a bitch.' LOLLLL

If you don't know me.

Just stfu :)

23022014

有些人就是得空没事做

跑去看别人的动态

吃的东西  做的事情  交的朋友

这一些难不成我要向你们交代吧

我有我的生活

你们有你们的生活

别以为知道我的动态

就了解我的人格

我的人格  性格 

我爱干嘛就干嘛

轮不到你们来批评

最近

遇到了让我烦心的事

有人莫名的偷窥我还要打小报告

如果爱一个人 = 毁了他

对不起

那不是爱

那是你自以为是的自私

如果别人说了我的事

你问了我  才相信我

那是不信任

如果别人说了我的事

你问都不用问  就相信我

那是打从心底的信任

信任

在亲人  情人  朋友 里

是个重要角色

但  视乎 

我得不到家人的信任

做了很多不让他们担心心烦的事

原来  还是不足够

永远都不足

08122013- Last day of work

It was the last day for me to work at Watsons Sg Wang as Olay beauty consultant.

Had been working at this outlet since October.

It's never been easy to be a good promoter, especially under P&G company, as it is a big and international company. 

The stress and tension that I have for all these while is really quite unbearable for a normal person. 

But...

Proudly to say that,

I've been working as Olay beauty consultant for 15 months. :O :O

Unbelievable that I've worked more than a year under the same brand.

So unbelievable.

So incredible.

Maybe, someday...

I'll be working with P&G again.

Only after I deal with my finals.

Since it was my last day to work, I, of course, took some pics with te promoters. *some of them left earlier, didn't get to take piccas :( *

-Yuki, the Bio Essence promoter. Taking care of me, sharing funny and hilarious moments, telling me about her experiences and life etc. Just like a Mama. Thanks for that, see you next time. ^.^

-Essence promoter from the same outlet. This lady is quite friendly and helpful to others. Tq! 

It was a good and memorable experience when working with them, I meant the promoters and Watsons staffs.

I even get treated for a cup of Apple flavor bubble tea from a Watsons store-boy today, just because I helped him out to arrange the stocks and stuffs yesterday. HAHA! 

Anyway, thanks for that.

I really appreciate it. *wink*

06122013

Worked as mail distributor around KL today as usual. 

Have been working as Malay Mail distributor since October around KL area and this month would be the last month for this job. Wish me luck :)

Was pretty hungry as I didn't consume any meal yet before the work starts. Sorry my stomach :(

And the HAPPIEST moment came--WORK IS DONE!!!

Went SOULed Out Ampang for late dinner after work. 

With Babe Lyn and her bf, Shawn.

My main course:

Chicken Cordon 'BLURRR' 

-Chicken rolled with ham and sausage with a taste of cheese in it

It was nice and it matches perfectly with the black pepper sauce.

So lip smacking💋

Overall, it was a great night out with the awesome people. 

Good night.

 Xoxo, 🐰

Lazy ass

Need motivation and determination to start my revision.

I really need that. 

There's no second chance for this time.

Either get to pass or fail.

That's it.

Stress is overwhelming.

Consumes me from the inside out.

Arghhhhhhh

#YOLO

This gonna the REALLLL YOLO post.
What is the thing so real YOLO about?

1st of December,
tried something that I've never tried before.

Courage is the main key.
Gathered all my courage.
No matter what's the outcome, it doesn't matter.  
At least, I got to say it, before it's too late.

In life, there's a lot of people afraid of risks.
I can see that you're afraid of the risks in boy-girl relationship.
The risk of  getting hurt.
The risk of being cheated on.
The risk of being used.

Your past has brought too much of painful and heartbreaking memories to you.
The should-be-forgotten past has molded you,
To be a better and matured person.
But in the same time,
To be a person who afraid of falling in love again.
Maybe one day, all the past and heartbreaking memories could be really left behind.
And that might be the time when you can feel the love again.

So,
I accept the answer calmly.
Understand your situation, difficulties and feelings.
Not forcing you for any answer or confirmation.

It's just simply like a YOLO mission,
which I feel that one day I might regret if I don't say it out right now.

No matter what's the outcomes in the end, 
it's alright actually.
My feeling is not so fragile and weak.


To be honest, I didn't feel any heartbreaking thingy but there's still something.
Something like, why we can't just work this out together. 
I just can tell that, the feeling of afraid and scared is killing a lot.

Somehow,
We're not being together, but we make it feel like we're together.
I wouldn't ask you to handle my heart with care and love.
I will handle my heart myself. Fragile or not, that's my choice.
I just want you to know,
I'm not giving you pressure to the whatsoever answer.
But at least, don't ever cheat yourself on your own true feelings.
Face your true feelings.
AND,
Don't ever ask me to move on or,
go for another guy or,
ignore my existence.
You knew what's my feeling towards you. 
You knew it very well, I know.
I will always care for you, 
even if we're not together, 
even if one day we're far away from each other.

We may not be together, but you're always on my mind and in my heart.
Maybe, someday you'll feel like falling in love,
you'll feel like forget all the risks and just take the fall.
Because,
If it's meant to be, then it's worth it all.
Don't forget to enjoy the best things in your life, 
cause you ain't gonna get to live it twice.

01122013

December, 

the new month comes, like finally.

It's so unbelievable that Christmas and New Year is around the corner.
24 days to Christmas.
30 days to 2014.

December, please be good to me.
Not to blame that the 11 months before was totally a disaster,
but I always believe that the good days are always there after all the bad glooming days.
All the hopelessness and pessimistic thoughts shall GO AWAY.

Hope the very last month of 2013 is an AWESOME one.
If not awesome, then at least, a HAPPY one. ;)

I hope this will be a December to remember.