#YOLO

This gonna the REALLLL YOLO post.
What is the thing so real YOLO about?

1st of December,
tried something that I've never tried before.

Courage is the main key.
Gathered all my courage.
No matter what's the outcome, it doesn't matter.  
At least, I got to say it, before it's too late.

In life, there's a lot of people afraid of risks.
I can see that you're afraid of the risks in boy-girl relationship.
The risk of  getting hurt.
The risk of being cheated on.
The risk of being used.

Your past has brought too much of painful and heartbreaking memories to you.
The should-be-forgotten past has molded you,
To be a better and matured person.
But in the same time,
To be a person who afraid of falling in love again.
Maybe one day, all the past and heartbreaking memories could be really left behind.
And that might be the time when you can feel the love again.

So,
I accept the answer calmly.
Understand your situation, difficulties and feelings.
Not forcing you for any answer or confirmation.

It's just simply like a YOLO mission,
which I feel that one day I might regret if I don't say it out right now.

No matter what's the outcomes in the end, 
it's alright actually.
My feeling is not so fragile and weak.


To be honest, I didn't feel any heartbreaking thingy but there's still something.
Something like, why we can't just work this out together. 
I just can tell that, the feeling of afraid and scared is killing a lot.

Somehow,
We're not being together, but we make it feel like we're together.
I wouldn't ask you to handle my heart with care and love.
I will handle my heart myself. Fragile or not, that's my choice.
I just want you to know,
I'm not giving you pressure to the whatsoever answer.
But at least, don't ever cheat yourself on your own true feelings.
Face your true feelings.
AND,
Don't ever ask me to move on or,
go for another guy or,
ignore my existence.
You knew what's my feeling towards you. 
You knew it very well, I know.
I will always care for you, 
even if we're not together, 
even if one day we're far away from each other.

We may not be together, but you're always on my mind and in my heart.
Maybe, someday you'll feel like falling in love,
you'll feel like forget all the risks and just take the fall.
Because,
If it's meant to be, then it's worth it all.
Don't forget to enjoy the best things in your life, 
cause you ain't gonna get to live it twice.

01122013

December, 

the new month comes, like finally.

It's so unbelievable that Christmas and New Year is around the corner.
24 days to Christmas.
30 days to 2014.

December, please be good to me.
Not to blame that the 11 months before was totally a disaster,
but I always believe that the good days are always there after all the bad glooming days.
All the hopelessness and pessimistic thoughts shall GO AWAY.

Hope the very last month of 2013 is an AWESOME one.
If not awesome, then at least, a HAPPY one. ;)

I hope this will be a December to remember.

The past is sealed.

The past is sealed.
Chose to leave all the past behind.
People. Things. Feelings. All of them.


December is definitely a new month.
New month, new life, for me.


Since a new month is going to begin,
talking about the past wouldn't affect me much.


To him.
Thanks for the love and the heartbreaks.
It was indeed a memory. With love and hate.
You made yourself quite a good partner in boy-girl relationship.

Appreciated what you've did to me.
I was once left by you.
You left me with scars, hatred, frustration and madness.
Those feelings were truly killing me on the days and especially nights.
My mind was filled with curiosity.
Questioning myself, doubting myself.

And then, I thought I've put you down and let you just be a part of my memories.
But, I still felt the heartache even tough I thought I've moved on.


To him,
It was too fast, super fast to start a new relationship when I've totally no idea are you the one.
Too rush is not a good thing I'd guess :X
Everything was pretty good at first.
I was telling myself, age is just a number.

And this became so ironic when I found out that you were not the one.
Arguments came in.
Disagreements over the same old little things.

You were not the one.
Age and mind do matter, at least, to me.
Distanced myself from you and bye.

Thanks for the caring. You deserve a better one.


Both of you should forget and move on.
Move on, is a better choice to live your life
All these were the past which could never ever come back again.
Sealed and left behind.
Thanks and bye.