Greetings from Penang :)

Currently I'm at Penang for a short vacation with mum and bro. Came here since Thursday and today is the 3rd day :D

The places that we went for the 1st and 2nd day, the food, the hotel. 

Not to say that everything is perfect but until this moment, everything goes smoothly.

Here's a picture that I took at the Penang wall art street. :)))

Got to visit a lot of places for the past two days. Gotta write posts on the Penang trip when I'm back to KL. Tata~

Xoxo, BunnyLaine ;)

08122013- Last day of work

It was the last day for me to work at Watsons Sg Wang as Olay beauty consultant.

Had been working at this outlet since October.

It's never been easy to be a good promoter, especially under P&G company, as it is a big and international company. 

The stress and tension that I have for all these while is really quite unbearable for a normal person. 

But...

Proudly to say that,

I've been working as Olay beauty consultant for 15 months. :O :O

Unbelievable that I've worked more than a year under the same brand.

So unbelievable.

So incredible.

Maybe, someday...

I'll be working with P&G again.

Only after I deal with my finals.

Since it was my last day to work, I, of course, took some pics with te promoters. *some of them left earlier, didn't get to take piccas :( *

-Yuki, the Bio Essence promoter. Taking care of me, sharing funny and hilarious moments, telling me about her experiences and life etc. Just like a Mama. Thanks for that, see you next time. ^.^

-Essence promoter from the same outlet. This lady is quite friendly and helpful to others. Tq! 

It was a good and memorable experience when working with them, I meant the promoters and Watsons staffs.

I even get treated for a cup of Apple flavor bubble tea from a Watsons store-boy today, just because I helped him out to arrange the stocks and stuffs yesterday. HAHA! 

Anyway, thanks for that.

I really appreciate it. *wink*

06122013

Worked as mail distributor around KL today as usual. 

Have been working as Malay Mail distributor since October around KL area and this month would be the last month for this job. Wish me luck :)

Was pretty hungry as I didn't consume any meal yet before the work starts. Sorry my stomach :(

And the HAPPIEST moment came--WORK IS DONE!!!

Went SOULed Out Ampang for late dinner after work. 

With Babe Lyn and her bf, Shawn.

My main course:

Chicken Cordon 'BLURRR' 

-Chicken rolled with ham and sausage with a taste of cheese in it

It was nice and it matches perfectly with the black pepper sauce.

So lip smacking💋

Overall, it was a great night out with the awesome people. 

Good night.

 Xoxo, 🐰

Mama is in the house!

Mum and bro will be arriving at 7pm. 

Households not done yet.

Laundry not done yet.

Every corner of the house is MESS! 

Planned to wake up earlier but ended up woke up late and cleared all the mess. 

FINALLY!!! The house is clean now.

That feeling when everything's you supposed to do is DONE is more than GREAT! :D :D

Lazy ass

Need motivation and determination to start my revision.

I really need that. 

There's no second chance for this time.

Either get to pass or fail.

That's it.

Stress is overwhelming.

Consumes me from the inside out.

Arghhhhhhh

#YOLO

This gonna the REALLLL YOLO post.
What is the thing so real YOLO about?

1st of December,
tried something that I've never tried before.

Courage is the main key.
Gathered all my courage.
No matter what's the outcome, it doesn't matter.  
At least, I got to say it, before it's too late.

In life, there's a lot of people afraid of risks.
I can see that you're afraid of the risks in boy-girl relationship.
The risk of  getting hurt.
The risk of being cheated on.
The risk of being used.

Your past has brought too much of painful and heartbreaking memories to you.
The should-be-forgotten past has molded you,
To be a better and matured person.
But in the same time,
To be a person who afraid of falling in love again.
Maybe one day, all the past and heartbreaking memories could be really left behind.
And that might be the time when you can feel the love again.

So,
I accept the answer calmly.
Understand your situation, difficulties and feelings.
Not forcing you for any answer or confirmation.

It's just simply like a YOLO mission,
which I feel that one day I might regret if I don't say it out right now.

No matter what's the outcomes in the end, 
it's alright actually.
My feeling is not so fragile and weak.


To be honest, I didn't feel any heartbreaking thingy but there's still something.
Something like, why we can't just work this out together. 
I just can tell that, the feeling of afraid and scared is killing a lot.

Somehow,
We're not being together, but we make it feel like we're together.
I wouldn't ask you to handle my heart with care and love.
I will handle my heart myself. Fragile or not, that's my choice.
I just want you to know,
I'm not giving you pressure to the whatsoever answer.
But at least, don't ever cheat yourself on your own true feelings.
Face your true feelings.
AND,
Don't ever ask me to move on or,
go for another guy or,
ignore my existence.
You knew what's my feeling towards you. 
You knew it very well, I know.
I will always care for you, 
even if we're not together, 
even if one day we're far away from each other.

We may not be together, but you're always on my mind and in my heart.
Maybe, someday you'll feel like falling in love,
you'll feel like forget all the risks and just take the fall.
Because,
If it's meant to be, then it's worth it all.
Don't forget to enjoy the best things in your life, 
cause you ain't gonna get to live it twice.

01122013

December, 

the new month comes, like finally.

It's so unbelievable that Christmas and New Year is around the corner.
24 days to Christmas.
30 days to 2014.

December, please be good to me.
Not to blame that the 11 months before was totally a disaster,
but I always believe that the good days are always there after all the bad glooming days.
All the hopelessness and pessimistic thoughts shall GO AWAY.

Hope the very last month of 2013 is an AWESOME one.
If not awesome, then at least, a HAPPY one. ;)

I hope this will be a December to remember.

The past is sealed.

The past is sealed.
Chose to leave all the past behind.
People. Things. Feelings. All of them.


December is definitely a new month.
New month, new life, for me.


Since a new month is going to begin,
talking about the past wouldn't affect me much.


To him.
Thanks for the love and the heartbreaks.
It was indeed a memory. With love and hate.
You made yourself quite a good partner in boy-girl relationship.

Appreciated what you've did to me.
I was once left by you.
You left me with scars, hatred, frustration and madness.
Those feelings were truly killing me on the days and especially nights.
My mind was filled with curiosity.
Questioning myself, doubting myself.

And then, I thought I've put you down and let you just be a part of my memories.
But, I still felt the heartache even tough I thought I've moved on.


To him,
It was too fast, super fast to start a new relationship when I've totally no idea are you the one.
Too rush is not a good thing I'd guess :X
Everything was pretty good at first.
I was telling myself, age is just a number.

And this became so ironic when I found out that you were not the one.
Arguments came in.
Disagreements over the same old little things.

You were not the one.
Age and mind do matter, at least, to me.
Distanced myself from you and bye.

Thanks for the caring. You deserve a better one.


Both of you should forget and move on.
Move on, is a better choice to live your life
All these were the past which could never ever come back again.
Sealed and left behind.
Thanks and bye.

Error

To You
Actually I never plan to meet you.
Your existence is not on the right time.

Seriously, I've no any feeling towards you.
Sometimes I just feel like,
Can you stop it? Can you get out of my life?
Can you let me have a break?

Stop forcing me to do something that I don't like.
I did not refuse doesn't mean that I agree with you.

I'm just too soft-hearted and do not know how to express my feeling in front of you.
If you think that we're perfectly together, you're wrong!
We do not match with each other.
You're not my type and I'm sure I'm not your type too.

Let time reveals everything.


To You
I'm not that girl.
We're not the same girl.

If we were not look alike, would you have a look on me?
If we were not look alike, would you ever noticed me?

Noooo
I'm pretty sure the answer is NO.

I knew it was just an error occurred.
Error between us. Error for that feeling.

You're just missing that little girl. You're just trying to find her from me.
This is the way you could miss her.

When you're going overseas later on, you'll forget me for sure.
I know
One day, you will have that courage to meet that girl.
Or maybe I just have to wait for your good news. Haha
Give yourself a smile and be confident :)

Love & Hate

18 and 22 years old.

Old enough to get into a fight?

Hate

Dislike

Hardly could I understand these which happen to both of you.

Won't both of you feel tired after the fight and quarrel?

Quarrel and fight is quite common in between siblings when we were in young age.

I still remembered four of us used to get into fight when we were at home without parents in those old days.

In the age of 8, I had that thought 'why I want to fight? so bored and no benefit at all' 

Then I stopped fighting. Hahaha~

Since then I never fight with my siblings and seldom have quarrels with them.

I'm more to a soft person and have good temper among them.

Now I'm 20.

I still couldn't believe you guys are still quarreling over small matters.

I hate the quarrels, I hate the fights.

I'm starting to get worried, panicked and every negative thoughts came into my mind.

Stressed!!!

Why your quarrel could gave me so much of tension and stressed me all the time?

Every of you are trying to ask me to do this and that.

I think 'order' would be better to describe.

Yes, they order me to look after both of you. 

Order me to take care of this 18 years old KID.

Order me to ask him go to school, what time should he get home, what time should he sleep, what should he eat etc etc etc. 

Order me to clean the house.

Order me to keep my eyes on both of you.

Order me to give money to KID.

Order me to put all my attention on both of you.

My freedom? life? dream? studies? 

Where they go?

I cared too much. I gave too much.

I wanted to care less and go away from all these.

I want to continue my studies in somewhere else, as long as not with you guys.

I want to get rid all of these. 

But can I?

I'm tired.

I'm really tired.

Please let me have a break. Seriously.

Maybe I should be selfish a bit.

Maybe I should care less.

To my Love

Confused.

Blurred.

Mixed feelings.

To You.

That day,

My heart was so pain.

I thought I've let go of you.

But no.

The conversation hit my mind and heart.

Finally I knew what's running in your mind.

When I got to know the truth at that moment,

My heart was like stop beating at that particular moment.

I was the only person felt in this way.

I felt I was that naive, out of a sudden.

Actually, 

You've turned away since that day.

You are moving on right now 

and

searching for another girl.

Why why why...

I was wondering why is it that easy for you to put down, forget and move on?

Sometimes, speaking frankly, I wanted to be just like you- just put it down and move on.

Just that easy, isn't it?

Deep in my heart, I knew that I can't.

Even though lots of people are asking me,

"Hey, are you still missing him?"

or

"Hey, do you still have feeling towards him?"

I always give that answer-

C'mon, of course I put it down already. It has been so long time.

I thought I could lie to myself.

But now, no, the answer is so clear that I'm still in that relationship.

I can't put it down yet.

Yes you might don't love me anymore.

I do not put any blame on you.

There's no right or wrong in a relationship.

You have your rights to turn away at anytime.

Maybe you just don't get why am I still having this shit feeling right now.

I knew you won't turn back.

I knew you won't even look at me anymore.

But, my heart is so stubborn that

I'm still loving you.

Sorry.

I'm so sorry.

Sorry that I love you.

Sorry that I hurt you.

Sorry that I've missed you.

很久以前写的-2011

没有他的支持

有梦想是多么快乐的一件事呐~  拥有梦想，是美好的，别人怎么样也抢不掉你的梦想，所以我说梦想是美好的，至少对我而言。

我一直都有好几个梦想。但，我从来都不敢告诉任何人我那渺小的梦想。也许，害怕别人给予的评语不是我想听的。也许，有时自己也没什么信心。

好想告诉他，我全部的梦想。

想告诉他是因为想让他为我感到开心，在我耳边小声的亲口说，“加油，别放弃!”

但，事与愿违，他完全对我的梦想一无所知。我没告诉他，他从来没问我。

最近，脑袋瓜忽然想起那早就被我埋在比心底还要再里面的梦想。想想现在的我，18岁。名副其实的年轻人，够资格去追寻我的梦想。不管再有什么样的阻扰，不会轻易的放手。

我该跟他说梦想的事吗？得到的会是正面的鼓励，还是造成心里另一个伤害。

曾经我想就这样直奔我的梦想，完全不在乎那些不看好我的人。

可是，在有这个念头的下一秒，很自然你的出现让我止步了。

梦想，我该向你前进吗？

曾经-2010

当我想起要为这个新的blog打些什么文章的，

有个人从我的脑海中闪过。

我不能否认，也只能承认了。XD

你是那个人，

轻易牵动我心的那个人。

我的心情都是看你的反应而定。

当你给了我开心、满足的表情，

这样已经足以让我高兴一天了。

当你给了我个没有表情、没有任何感觉的表情，

这样也真的让我想了好久-

你到底是怎么了。发生了什么事吗。是我让你不高兴了吗。

总之，你到底怎么了嘛。

当男生遇到事情/压力时，

做女朋友的不是应该安安静静在一旁，等你冷静下来，再问你怎么了吗。

我就是不想让你觉得我很烦，所以我才会在你旁边陪你。

我害怕要是我一直追问你怎么了，

你会觉得我真的是烦透了，

觉得我吵死了，不给你一点安静的空间。

相信我，我没有不想理你。

我下一次一定会烦你、烦你烦到你说停我才停止。

这样，你绝对没理由让你挑了。呵呵 =目

你，让我很难捉摸。

真的，好难。

但，我绝对没放弃去了解你，也不会放弃。

同样我们都是水瓶座，但怎么好像不是很了解你呢。

我自责了。

请再给我时间，我会证明给你看。

让你知道我也是在乎你。

Let it go

Exam is just around the corner. 

NO!!!! It is just left with one day!

But I still cant pay 100% concentration on my revision.

My study mood is not on YETTTTT

What the heck is happened on me these days.

*Izit just these days?* 

I think it happened more than days to be counted.

Yes, I know the thing is still there.

But...

I do not know is that left with memories or feeling.

If memories, yeah, u did killing the inside of me for so longggg time.

Please stop, it hurts.

If feeling, oh my goodness.

U're so stupid.

start to talk to myself againn

It really really hurts. Please stop it now.

I thought I would not have this butterflies all over my stomach when...

I met you, 

I talked to you, 

we laughed together like silly people.

Sometimes (actually most of the time) I feel like, why in real life, we cant have like the scenes in Vampire Diaries Season 4, 

where Damon compelled Elena to turn off her humanity. 

By turning off her humanity, 

she couldn't feel the sadness and hurts that her only brother had died. 

That's drama. Now this is real life.

Ughhh

And yes, I underestimated all these.

I'm not going to hold all these things anymore. 

Neither I want to remember 

nor care each of the little thing of yours.

It's time to let go.

Let go everything.

Yes, EVERYTHING.

Just let it go.