Couldn't believe that I've been working for 3 months+
Time flies and June is gonna be my last month working at my very 1st company.
Stepping into career world doesn't seem easy and fun at all.
It's quite unfair to conclude every job to be dull and bored.
But still, it depends.
For mine,
1. the company runs and develops in a good pace
2. salary is quite good compared to other companies which offered me less than what a degree holder should get (living in a big city ain't easy)
3. environment is not bad though (but my ideal working place is to have a gym room!)
BUT
what make things worse is the PEOPLE
I thought it would be alright as I work for the company not for the people.
But duhhh I'm so wrong for thinking in such naive way.
The manager and senior executives :'(
Those are the people who made me wanna scream and shout all the times.
Tried my best to deal and bear all the shits given.
When you are not happy with me, tell me in my face.
Not going around to report to the manager and then gives me the innocent-sheepish look on the 2nd day. Pretending like you never talk behind me? NAHHH (middle finger for u)
Why I have to bear and admit with something that I didn't do at all.
The most furious part is the fucking stupid brainless manager chose to believe the senior before trying to ask me and understand the whole thing. Is this what a manger should do?
"She's not willing to help"
Eh hello, how many times I did OT just because I helped you out to reduce your workload. How many times you passed on your work to me then you packed your stuffs and left the office? How many times I did something out of my responsibilities? There's no OT claim yet I'm still helping you out. I really did thought that I'm being helpful all these while.
(Eyes staring at my body and my clothes)
I'm not trying to claim that I'm pretty.
But I'm talking no other than a normal girl.
I understand people do watch other people out. It's normal to look at people sometimes. But staring at people more than 3 seconds without any communication is absolutely WEIRD for me.
Things don't only look weird when they stare at you more than 3 seconds,they look like perverts when the stares aren't on your face but your body parts. The way my male colleagues look at me is just more than normal stare I SWEAR!
And there's this senior whom I mentioned earlier, he's such a freak that I really wanna smack and punch at him (I'm not being violent here but I think he deserved to be smack right on his face) That fella came so near to me when he taught me something and he didn't even apologized when he accidentally touched me. It's normal when you brush through other people's skin unintentionally but it's not normal anymore when you did it more than 3 times in such a period of time. And the WORST part is he didn't apologized after that. Even you burped in front of my face, you just thought it's nothing big and you shouldn't say a simple sorry?
Why people can't understand and imply such basic simple courtesy in their lives.
How can people grew up in such manner? Where's all the basic manner? Some would say since it's sexual harassment, don't wear skirts or sleeveless clothes to work.Why do I have to limit myself just to drop myself out from the guys.The world shouldn't go in this way, guys should know their limits and each human being in this world should know what's simple manners and courtesy.
I know, some just don't. Fark that particular bitch and that jerk :)
I'M NOT DESERVED TO BE TREATED IN THIS WAY!!!
Ladies should be respected no matter at work place or at home.
Seriously, it's such a toxic working environment when people started to be selfish and only pick what they want to believe.
And never did I realized that I've became such a toxic person as well after I joined the company.
I started to complain a lot, get angry easily etc.
My mood and all depends on my work on the day itself.
If someone treats me like shit, my mood would be mad and moody for the rest of the day.
Even I'm not resigning for further studies, I'm sure that I'll be terminating my service for the company very soon too.
I couldn't take it anymore.
Nightmares and the excessive level of stress that I couldn't handle in my life.
Therefore,
Resignation letter is on its way.
Cheers to the weekend and the very last month of working!
Time to adjust and get back to a happier person.
Be patient
Be patient
Be patient
Just be patient for another 1 month
Just be patient just for the sake of not getting early release from the company
Just be patient and be careful of toxic people.
Till ya.
