Confirmation?

Totally neglected my blog for a long time.

I'm back.

Talking about confirmation

Hmm

I guess it's a tough moment while waiting for the confirmation

It's either a job confirmation

or confirmation about a r/ship

But I guess whenever the confirmation is yet to be done,

everything is questioned.

Have been questioning myself for such a long time.

"Is he the right guy?"

"Are you ready for that?"

"What would you do to cherish your partner?"

etc.....

All these popped into my head,

each and every day.

Thinking about someone do make us feel happy.

But become emotional also, at the same time.

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I once ran after a guy that I liked so much.

Spent time and effort on him,

without any hesitation or doubt,

I just wanted to be with him so badly that time.

At last, everything ended up.

Everything went worse.

I never blamed him for that.

I blamed myself a lot.

That's my decision which I decided to run after a guy who doesn't liked me at all.

So, bear the consequences :)

Everything goes well.

I let go all of the feelings and I'm okay right now.

After this particular guy, I told myself

I wouldn't chase after a guy anymore.

Once is enough. I'm tired.

If he likes you, he will eventually put in effort to be with you. 

No matter how hard the situation is, you will be with him.

If he is meant to be yours, he will by your side, at last.

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I know rushing brings nothing but just a harmful decision to both of us.

But, I just wanna let you know something.

Something that I really think of in every single days.

I can't deny that I'm missing you.

I miss you, a lot more than you could ever think of.

I have so much things to do with you.

Share food with you. 

Explore new cafes and restaurants around the town. 

Bring me along for trips. Short vacation or long trip to overseas. 

Bring me to Disneyland.

Cherish you and the moments we are together. 

Be your listener and share your burdens.

Be with you when you're down.

Give you freedom and watch you smile around your friends.

Smile with you. Talk lame jokes with you.

Sing songs with you. Even though we sing like mad people.

Cook for you. Cook with you. Don't care it's breakfast, lunch or dinner.

Swim together. Our fav sports ;)

On diet together. Save money on the same time :P

Watch movies together.

Enjoy lil moments with you.

Enjoy silent moments where you play your games and I do my stuffs.

Enjoy each other's presence and existence.

Guess this is what I gonna do with the future boyfie.

Two persons, just you and me.

It's perfect enough, at least for me.

Anyway, time is needed before going into a serious relationship.

No rushing, but with patience, tolerance and understanding

Confirmation? Screw you.

Appreciate the moments. Cherish all the memories. Make moments into memories.

I would be here, all the time, to be with you :')

Try harder

Months passed by
I'm still hanging on the same reason
again and again.

Told myself to have a break from all those stuffs
But, I just failed to do so.

I once gathered all my tears and sorrow, leaving that place.
But, now I only realized,
I'm not leaving too far,
I just walked from the place to outside of the place.
I'm outside of it, waiting like nobody cares.
Standing outside yet looking into the circle,
trying to get into it.

Place of thorns and pieces of glasses.
Still, stubborn enough wanting to go back.

Life's so funny.
And ridiculous.

Take a deep breath.
Despite the deep breath is too long to take,
it's okay. Just take the time to heal.
No matter how long it is, just breathe and get healed.

I'll be alright.
Back to the independent person.
Being dependent is just my outer layer,
a shield to protect a relationship.

But now, I should not lose myself.
Get back to the independent and strong person.
Perhaps, it needs time to back on track.
being dependent for sometimes, 
all I need is time.

Get rid of it.
Gain experience.
Be independent.
Be strong enough to shed the tears away.

LOADING...

BunnieLand is dead 
Totally deaddd
due to massive work on the assignments, tests and presentations over the few months.

Recently,
I have so much idea to put in
but
I have nooooo......time

Cropping, editing and uploading aren't easy things to do
Yet they require a lot of time and effort.

Hmm..
Guess it'll be back on January.
Hope my idea will successful this time

I need more creative ideas
more and more and more

24 hours isn't enough at all.
Maybe it's because
my time management is bad.
very bad x293509248652865

Assignments due is approaching.
One on 18th, another one on 22nd.
I started the 22nd one, 
but the 22nd one still untouchable,
not even the title of the assignment.

17th - Social Networking finals
      - Hubungan Etnik finals
18th - International Business assignment 
19th till 21st - Work
22nd - Entrepreneurial Management assignment

Ah...looking at these make me frustrated all the time
Have been eating a lot of snacks (rubbish foods) recently

Hope I won't get very fat by the end of all the finals and assignments
(although I'm fat now, but please no fatter kay..)

Gotta stop here,
back to my assignment.

xoxo,

Alaine